Something amazing happened. Andy called. He told me I was right, Emilia clearly has feelings for him. I couldn't believe my ears. At the same time, another feeling emerged. He was awfully sweet to me on the phone. I remembered good times with him, his 6-month old crush on me, our kiss, his hapiness in seeing me. It overwhelmed me. Maybe the movie I was watching affected my brain (I mean we're talking about "Something's gotta give" here). I was in a sudden romantic mood.
I saw romantic scenes in my head, a mix between the movie and my dreams. The both of us walking on the beach or in Paris at night. We're the old couple. Never daring to truly admit what we feel, because we ignore those feelings but we know they exist. The two old buddies never committing. Friends in disguise. Playing a game in front of the others, in front of ourselves.
It's midnight now. I want to be on a bridge in Paris with him, finally saying what I think. Yet I'm too much of a coward to find the words. Like Harry having a heart attack and searching for air...
We're the next day. Maybe I'll be less of a coward. Just maybe.
-Zelda
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Day 1 : Sunday in the Sun
I've decided to do something I haven't done in a while. Think about my ex, my first love. (or so I think)
It amazes me to know that I didn't care about his reputation or bad choice of friends. I simply didn't care, because he was all I needed. There was finally a person who cared for me, who made me smile, who could touch me the way he could. I thought he was attractive, I still do, yet others say he's not so special.
I truly wonder, does he ever think of me? Why did he suddnenly drop everything and leave me? (his explanation was worthless)
I forgive him. I hope he's happier now. I hope it's for the best.
His name rests in my heart and only time will make the pain go away.
-Zelda
It amazes me to know that I didn't care about his reputation or bad choice of friends. I simply didn't care, because he was all I needed. There was finally a person who cared for me, who made me smile, who could touch me the way he could. I thought he was attractive, I still do, yet others say he's not so special.
I truly wonder, does he ever think of me? Why did he suddnenly drop everything and leave me? (his explanation was worthless)
I forgive him. I hope he's happier now. I hope it's for the best.
His name rests in my heart and only time will make the pain go away.
-Zelda
Day 1 : Girl Trouble
I am probably the least dramatic person in the country, and yet, drama follows me, mostly through my friends.
A good friend of mine, Emilia, 18, has this sort of "crush" on our very good buddie, Andy. Andy has liked me in a special way for 6 months. (He's a little complicated with emotions and I ignored all chemistry until we kissed for the first time, where he ended up acting as if nothing were.) We all went out to party (where I ended up taking care of drunk friends), and I learned that Emilia had cried on Andy's shoulder for half an hour. I really didn't care, because I was simply busy. The next day I spoke with her, and she told me the following :
" Rosie told me that she saw some problems between Andy and me, so I went to talk to Andy outside. He told me I was becoming the same girl I was 6 months ago, in other words, sticking to him when he approaches other girls and being very touchy. I answered that I was having a difficult time and that I needed support, and that maybe I was looking for it that way. And so I started crying. He's the first guy who made me cry."
It is always awkward when we talk about him, because she can't admit her feelings for him, and he will never have the guts to tell her what he really thinks.
Emilia always tells me that my relationship with Andy is different, because I never get upset when he doesn't call or answer or flirts with other girls.
Honestly, I don't know if I should do something or not. Andy is too nice to break her heart, yet he doesn't want anything more than friendship with her. And should I continue ignoring the existing chemistry between him and me?
-Zelda
A good friend of mine, Emilia, 18, has this sort of "crush" on our very good buddie, Andy. Andy has liked me in a special way for 6 months. (He's a little complicated with emotions and I ignored all chemistry until we kissed for the first time, where he ended up acting as if nothing were.) We all went out to party (where I ended up taking care of drunk friends), and I learned that Emilia had cried on Andy's shoulder for half an hour. I really didn't care, because I was simply busy. The next day I spoke with her, and she told me the following :
" Rosie told me that she saw some problems between Andy and me, so I went to talk to Andy outside. He told me I was becoming the same girl I was 6 months ago, in other words, sticking to him when he approaches other girls and being very touchy. I answered that I was having a difficult time and that I needed support, and that maybe I was looking for it that way. And so I started crying. He's the first guy who made me cry."
It is always awkward when we talk about him, because she can't admit her feelings for him, and he will never have the guts to tell her what he really thinks.
Emilia always tells me that my relationship with Andy is different, because I never get upset when he doesn't call or answer or flirts with other girls.
Honestly, I don't know if I should do something or not. Andy is too nice to break her heart, yet he doesn't want anything more than friendship with her. And should I continue ignoring the existing chemistry between him and me?
-Zelda
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