Day 38: New beginning please come!

So I must get a few things of my chest, in order of importance (the first needing to be said more than anything):
-I must must must end it COMPLETELY with Jake! We were supposed to see each other friday night, and just not to wait alone I went to a bar with friends. At ten thirty he tells me he won't come, having still a swollen mouth and no more motivation. Firstly, I am the motivation for his evening. Secondly, he could have known that before ten thirty. Thirdly, a guy who really likes a girl does not do that to her, no matter what condition he's in. So clearly he is not interested and I must give him up, completely!
-I'm in exams since last Monday, and my first oral exam is tomorrow. I cannot wait to get it over with because I know that then the next step is moving out and changing my entire lifestyle. So I better do a good job at these exams!!
-I have a blackberry now, and so I was writing to Jake, Diana and Emilia from it for the last 2 weeks. Of course I don't write to Jake anymore.

Getting stood up and sitting in the library are the only things going on for me right now. I do get to spend a lot of time with Phoebe, which is at least the good part of these exams!

-Zelda

Day 37: Alejandro!

I'm back!! Yes I took 2 weeks vacation even if in 10 days I have big exams! I went to Arizona and Utah and turned 18! On my birthday, I lived the unexpected (other than driving a fastboat). Jake wrote! I was sure he was going to forget it. So sure I didn't even think of expecting a message. The message quite cute and I was for sure suprised.
Other than that, I forgot to mention that my entire group of friends has forgotten our friend Rose. She robbed from Phoebe (more than money), ruined Phoebe's reputation for her own good and we realise only now that she's history that we're all better off. She has even left the uni I'm going to attend. No more people will think badly of us because of bad things she could have possibly said.
Yet today, Marina saw her in the city! Very unexpected. I wonder why she would come here even with her bad reputation. Maybe to serve her wealthy customers.
Other than that, Jake had told me he was going to go to Germany during the month of august so I expected not to see him this month, yet my sister saw him yesterday in front of starbucks... Strange. Why wouldn't he tell me so that we actually do see each other before uni? Always typical complicated Jake. I should leave him as he is and concentrate on my exams, which by the way is bloody hard.
My birthday gift is usually going to be a blackberry, but as usual, my mom is slow on getting it for me. My birthday was 10 days ago. Why doesn't she just move her butt and buy it? It's all I really want and I only asked for a blackberry and an expensive purse (which I'll probably never ever get). So far, nothing coming. Yet I've been asking for these presents for at least 8 months!! Everybody else gets that stuff faster... and usually I don't compare but it was my 18th birthday!!

So how shall I concentrate? I'm thinking od Jake,mydutch friend from New Year who wants to visit me and wants me to visit him in London, and my present I'm not getting. Sh*t.

Oh, just let me go, Alejandro!

-Zelda