Day 28: 20 Days later... all is different.

I went out two week ends now. Phoebe's b-day party and another girls party (I'll name her Gaga).
First week end, Fantastic party, great people, loads of pictures and a lot to drink. Fun, Fun, Fun.
As usual, one problem, Jake. He wrote Emilia a sms asking her what she was doing and he came with Anthony. At the beginning he was sweet, stayed close to me. I realised a lot of flirts or guys were looking at me and at him, and I said: " Lots of guys are interested in me". Apparantly, that was all that was needed to make him crack. He became super-distant, and then kissed, no, made out, with his friend Agnes. I was in a thousand pieces. The worst night of my life and I realised right at that moment that I have feelings for him, real ones! I was between rage and tears. Gaga helped me confront him, and he told me honestly that I meant a lot to him and that he was trying to forget his ex and that he kissed her to make me jelous. Why thank you for ruining my night, Jake. I wish you hadn't come, even though I know more about you now.

The next saturday night was a funny one, but nothing special happened for me. Phoebe made out with my sorta flirt and I couldn't have been happier for her, because I'm clearly emotionnally attached to some one... It bugged me all night to not have seen or met a guy I really liked. Maybe next time!

Today it's wednesday. I think I'll be having a drink with my sweet friend Collin. I think he would like more and he deserves a lot more than frienship I find. Otherwise I've been speaking to Liam, and he's finally coming home!!! I'm so happy... maybe sparks will fly? I hope they do. Andy is in military service so I don't get as much news as before, I hope he's allright!

It's late, and I resumed the things I cared about, nothing more. Good night world.

-Zelda

Day 27: Sun is coming...

I did not go out last week end. In fact, I'm not going out this week end either. Next week end will be the interesting one, yay!
Even if i didn't leave the house other than to go shopping, to tennis, to starbucks or to Andy's house, I have some interesting things I'm thinking about.
1. I love counting and making lists as seen previously.
2. I watched the episode od How I met your mother where Carrie Underwood guest stars, and I'm trying to figure something key out. Am I on the hook? On Jake's I mean. Cause after that episode i was left stupid. He told me he wants to date, but not now, in September. Sure, I'm waiting but at the same time I'm seeing other people, and yet if he calls right now, I'd be available to him. So yes, I guess I'm on the hook. I ABSOLUTELY need to get off that hook, but I REALLY like him and of course I know why we're not dating now, he doesn't live here. What do I do?
3. I met a long time ago (or a good month) a guy I really liked physically at one of my fav clubs. I added him on facebook and he finally accepted and we talked a bit on chat. This guy, Phil, was completely suprised I remembered him, after I told him he was the only guy I remembered from that night(more likely only guy name). So he has a serious ego problem or why does he think no girl ever remembers him (as he said)? I like him, and I might invite him for a drink soon.
4. My dutch guy fron New year, Tony, has been talking quite a lot with me lately. Honestly, I'm really liking talking with him, cause he's always funny and makes me smile (even through chat). He cannot wait till next christmas to see me again, and neither can I !
5. I really want to go to Phoebe's birthday party with a guy because at least I know I'll have fun. Who shall I take? I would like either Jake or Phil, but I don't talk enough to either and I don't think it's my fault.

-Zelda