Day 9: Excuse me, aren't you mistaken?

Yikes! I just got news to chatter about.
Emilia went out on Saturday (of course) and saw Jake and sorta everybody else who possibly knew about him & I.
He went over to her and asked for me, looking pretty bummed I wasn't there (or even close).
Apparantley, Andy had seen him and asked whether he wanted to eat lunch with Andy and me the day before. Something I had no idea of. He didn't come because he was too stressed as he had to "buy medecine at the pharmacy".
I can't believe that's considered a valid answer. What planet does he live on??
I must be right about the "immature" part. I was so cracked up when I heard this story.
Please, dude, if this is true, get a life.

"I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it. " Evelyn Beatrice Hall

-Zelda

Day 8: Much thoughts, lame reason.

Don't you ever wonder what went wrong? Like why is the guy you cared so much about suddenly OUT of your life?

I feel that way all the time.

For Matt, as I still don't get what even happened when we dated... like a dream or a fantasy movie. It's been 6 months I'm single for crying out loud ! Why do I still care?

For Liam, my ultimate guy friend who went to New York without saying good-bye and doesn't even care of how I'm doing. Does he want me to leave him alone or should I ask what's wrong?

For Andy, as he is extremely happy to see me all the time but yet doesn't have what it takes to write a sms. What's his problem? still undecided?

Maybe these guys aren't men but boys. Totally immature boys. How come I like them so much? No idea.

"The trick is in what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." Carlos Castaneda

-Zelda

Day 7: Waiting for ... ?

What did I do? Why must I be so desperate in the absolute wrong moments?!
I invited Jake to Emilia's party as my "guy" and to resume the whole... we kissed and almost had s.e.x.
We got very close by the end of the evening, but till then we weren't as close. Some whore from the table next to us kept going to him, and for a while I had no idea where he was. I found out later that he was talking to Roxy outside, so no worries. So we got really close after my guy friend (who was finally useful) pretended to flirt with me so Jake would come running. It was an awsome night, without a doubt, and he said like 20 times "I'll call you tomorrow". It's monday now, and still no call. What went wrong?
I'll never get guys even if I'm really good at understanding them...
So now I'm waiting for that call, and the more time passes, the faster I'll move on to another guy.


"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change." Buddha

-Zelda