Day 13: Welcome back!

Exams have been over for 3 days !
And yes, I've been going out for three days.
A huge group of friends did a surprise birthday bash for me and I was just amazed that I meant so much to them! A year ago I wouldn't have thought I would have such an amazing social life with all these down-to-earth people.
The birthday was amazing! Balloons, bubbles, decoration and crowns made my little girl dreams come true! What a sweet pack of friends.

Tomorrow I'm taking 2 planes to go to Santander, Spain. I can't wait to be livin' la vida loca on the uni campus. I'll be keeping myself updated anywhere possible for my friends.
Oh, I still haven't packed, how typical.

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart." Elizabeth Foley

-Zelda

Day 12: Dreaming my way into reality

I wish I didn't have these dumb exams. My life has become boring since. The only existing drama is with the girls of my class, and I've always seen it as lame.

During the day I work till I'm sleepy or bored to death, and at night I dream about love, sex, or... pregnancy.
Yes, I'm so messed up that I'm dreaming about babies. About a boy, to be exact. Not a very normal dream for a seventeen year old who actually only wants to party and make out.
I still have the image of that cute son of mine in my head. And the father I cannot count on. And the buddy who helps out like a dad. I feel very, very strange about this dream.
Sometimes at night I'd open my eyes to make sure my lover was/wasn't there and that my baby was actually a dream. Scary!

I'm so happy it's a dream and that soon I'll be thinking about other things. It's not that I don't love that particular baby with all my heart, it's just I wish it will be born into a more stable and happy environment.
I'm sooo tired, and so afraid to see his angel eyes and my lovers desire for me. It's just too much to handle.
Does this stuff happen when I work too much? I feel I'll be dreaming about babies for a long, long time if it always happens because of stress. Oh no!


"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot survive without human affection." HH The Dalai Lama

-Zelda

Day 11: Happy Birthday Zelda !

It's my birthday and the morning was just great... until now.
Andy called to congratulate and to tell me my ex Matt was running after a girl he knew and he told the girl not to date him.
Why did he even have to mention his name?
Can't he think that the reason I never EVER talk about his exes is to respect his personal life? He's suposed to be my friend and is only acting like a jerk.

I hope it gets better this afternoon... luckily I'm seeing Phoebe who will help me be myself.

"A word to the wise ain't necessary, it's the stupid ones who need the advice." Bill Cosby

-Zelda

Day 10: A break from reality ... =)

I've decided not to write about drama today ... something more fun, to celebrate my coming birthday in 2 hours haha.

I will put a list of the women I admire, so sorta my girl-crushes, and why I admire them.

1. Keira Knightley: for being naturally beautiful and for playing in great movies like Pride&Prejudice and The Duchess

2. Lauren Conrad: for her amazing way of knowing how to dress and sell.

3. Rachel Mcadams: for being a stunning actress, a "normal" celebrity and a Canada-lover.

4. Leighton Meester : For her role as Blair and her fun-to-listen songs.

5. Selena Gomez : For being a real Disney star and normal fun-loving girl.

6. Carrie Underwood: For being my favorite singer ! (and I never listened to country)

7. Annalynne Mccord: For playing a wonderful biatch on the show 90210.

8. Natalie Portman : For being a talented, smart and pretty actress and showing brains can come with the looks.

9. Ashley Greene : For being my fav' vampire and Twilight star, Alice Cullen!

10. Diana Vickers : For being my favorite TV sing star, and for letting me wait for the soon to come CD!


"Judge of your natural character by what you do in your dreams." Ralph Waldo Emerson

-Zelda