I wish I didn't have these dumb exams. My life has become boring since. The only existing drama is with the girls of my class, and I've always seen it as lame.
During the day I work till I'm sleepy or bored to death, and at night I dream about love, sex, or... pregnancy.
Yes, I'm so messed up that I'm dreaming about babies. About a boy, to be exact. Not a very normal dream for a seventeen year old who actually only wants to party and make out.
I still have the image of that cute son of mine in my head. And the father I cannot count on. And the buddy who helps out like a dad. I feel very, very strange about this dream.
Sometimes at night I'd open my eyes to make sure my lover was/wasn't there and that my baby was actually a dream. Scary!
I'm so happy it's a dream and that soon I'll be thinking about other things. It's not that I don't love that particular baby with all my heart, it's just I wish it will be born into a more stable and happy environment.
I'm sooo tired, and so afraid to see his angel eyes and my lovers desire for me. It's just too much to handle.
Does this stuff happen when I work too much? I feel I'll be dreaming about babies for a long, long time if it always happens because of stress. Oh no!
"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot survive without human affection." HH The Dalai Lama
-Zelda
honey u read too much twilight! Really! Xoxo <3
ReplyDeleteI don't see it like in twilight... I see a baby boy, a weird pregnancy, a bad father, many lovers... and this boy is like a gift from heaven. Aaah crazy !
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