I went out two week ends now. Phoebe's b-day party and another girls party (I'll name her Gaga).
First week end, Fantastic party, great people, loads of pictures and a lot to drink. Fun, Fun, Fun.
As usual, one problem, Jake. He wrote Emilia a sms asking her what she was doing and he came with Anthony. At the beginning he was sweet, stayed close to me. I realised a lot of flirts or guys were looking at me and at him, and I said: " Lots of guys are interested in me". Apparantly, that was all that was needed to make him crack. He became super-distant, and then kissed, no, made out, with his friend Agnes. I was in a thousand pieces. The worst night of my life and I realised right at that moment that I have feelings for him, real ones! I was between rage and tears. Gaga helped me confront him, and he told me honestly that I meant a lot to him and that he was trying to forget his ex and that he kissed her to make me jelous. Why thank you for ruining my night, Jake. I wish you hadn't come, even though I know more about you now.
The next saturday night was a funny one, but nothing special happened for me. Phoebe made out with my sorta flirt and I couldn't have been happier for her, because I'm clearly emotionnally attached to some one... It bugged me all night to not have seen or met a guy I really liked. Maybe next time!
Today it's wednesday. I think I'll be having a drink with my sweet friend Collin. I think he would like more and he deserves a lot more than frienship I find. Otherwise I've been speaking to Liam, and he's finally coming home!!! I'm so happy... maybe sparks will fly? I hope they do. Andy is in military service so I don't get as much news as before, I hope he's allright!
It's late, and I resumed the things I cared about, nothing more. Good night world.
-Zelda
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