I need to resume facts of 3 week ends into one blog post.
First week end Friday, I went to the city to meet up with Ally (who left quickly) and I waited to see whether I coud meet anyone else. While I was crossing the street, I see Jake, who stops me and asks me to go with them. Them was Jake, an italian friend who was at the ski resort, his ex Joss and a friend (quite popular girls). It was probably the most uncomfortable situation in the world for me. The girls left for about an hour and I was alone with Jake at starbucks. We talked like real friends would, and I was super happy. When the girls came back, we understood ourselves well, even though his ex asked some indiscreet questions. I left to see Liam, who like always is a cutie.
2 week-ends ago, I saw Mathew for a coffee but came 1 hour late. He was waiting in front of starbucks with Jake... great. I arrived and said hi to them, but after 2 minutes of hearing Jake's voice I told mathew that we should leave. Jake said "let's phone for tonight!!" (since we had nothing planned). He didn't call or call back. -100 points for him.
The next evening (saturday) I went to the movies with Liam and we had a drink. On our way to a different bar he kissed me for real! It was quite wierd and fun and interesting. We spent most of the evening in each others arms. The next day I wrote to see him, but he couldn't. I tried again 2 other days and each time a no. So it pissed me that a saturday he would rather spend time with dan than with me. To that he wrote that he didn't want to hurt my feelings and that he wasn't ready for a relationship. When have I ever talked about a relationship?? I told him he understood it all wrong, and yet he's not convinced with my arguments. I haven't written since (except fussball). What do I do?
Otherwise that Satudray I went to the club and saw Andy. Together we went to the club where Collin was (he writes without needing an invitation) and where Jake and his ex and their friends' were. He was cute but I was cold. He should have called me before and I didn't want to appear interested. I spent the evening with Collin in the club and when Jake left, he came up to me, started kissing me on the cheek and asked me who Collin was. When I said who cares, because he didn't call anyway, he said: I'll call you tomorrow, I swear!!"
We're Tuesday and OF COURSE he didn't call. Nor did Liam. And Collin's acting like every other day.
What should I do? Tell Jake that I'm sick of his behaviour and have it said? Call Liam so that we can stay friends? Hang with Collin so that I can feel a little bit happy?
Gosh, I wish I had all the answers. Right now, I have all the questions.
-Zelda
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