Things happen for a reason, right? Why is then nothing happening with Liam and me for the moment? We had a cute date on a wednesday, we go clubbing together, he came over to my house in the middle of the night. But even though you would think nothing should hold us back from jumping at each others necks, he doesn't get further than giving me hugs. HUGS. Even Andy tried more. I'm giving all the good signals (I think) and yet we're not going anywhere. I really believe he's interested just by his cute commentaries and his jelousy of Jake (and vice versa). My mom told me he was probably too shy, gay, or not interested.
Monday night after he came over and did nothing but be a cutie, I chatted with him. I told him he was the only drunk guy who didn't try to make out with me. He laughed and then asked me if he should have. I answered that he is cute and that I wouldn't have refused. He admitted being too shy and asked if we could have a drink on Friday. Wow another try there! Of course I'll try to see him and I invited him for saturday evening, where I'll do a kareoke and go clubbing and probably get drunk (*). He better step up his game!
Otherwise I am over the moon happy because I got accepted at the uni (where Jake and co. study) even though I had sent too late some documents. What a relief!! And that is the reason why I want to get drunk (*), just be able to cool down after one MONTH of killing impatience.
One thing wonders me though. I'm not sure whether I'm really going to that uni anymore. I started seeing law as a really good option for me, as it suits my arrogant personnality and my love for reading and hate for math. If I choose Jake's uni, I'd do management or International relations (I could do law too). Now what??
The confusion keeps sinking in because I am COMPLETELY giving Jake the impression that I'm not interested at all anymore. Everytime I see or talk to him I'm completely uninterested and all he says is "it's been so long!!". Right, 2 weeks? I've waited months to be able to see his face and I complained less.
"The most decisive actions of our life ... are most often unconsidered actions." Andre Gide
-Zelda
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